Faith,
(((HUGS)))
It's ok to cry, it's ok to scream, it's even ok to break dishes but it is NOT ok to smoke. Regardless of what your husband does or doesn't do, in order to be successful this quit has to be for you. You have to want it more than you want anything else. I think you do. I think that is why you posted.
You don't have to talk about why he is smoking. You are both addicts and this is a horrible addiction to break. Be the example. Show him it can be done. Be the silent encourager for him to quit.
When we smoke, it controls everything we do. Determines where we go, for how long, why and with whom. The smoking enslaves our lives. I never realized that until I quit. I didn't even realize I was an addict until someone here told me.
Learn all you can about the addiction and hang on with all you've got. You can do this but you have to want to do it. Go to some of the websites that show the affects of people with cancer from smoking. Read some of the stories of those dying of lung cancer. It was a real eye opener for me.
Have faith Faith. You can do this. Reach out all you need to. Find what it is that gets you from one moment to the next and then do it again and again. Take it five minutes at a time and one step at a time. Just for the next hour you don't smoke. You can do that right? At the end of that hour re-evaluate and then commit to do it for one more hour. One step at a time.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 775
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 15,500
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,712.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 70 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28