Time is such a strange concept anyway. Now that i do not smoke, it seems even stranger. I guess it is because I was so used to having time cut up into sections..time when you did not smoke and time when you did smoke. Maybe, it is because smoking gave me something to look forward to. I am grocery shopping..kind of a boring activity after doing it for 30 years...but, when I get out of the store, I can have a cigarette! It was a small reward in an otherwise dull, repetitive existence. Most of us keep the same routine day after day; even on our days off of work. Having something to look forward to, like a vacation, a road trip, some event out of our ordinary existence, makes life a little more joyous. Using cigs as a small reward (it is the addiction we got to feed), gave me something to look forward to every hour, every two hours. Now, after 30 years, wow! Maybe that is where some of the quitting depression comes from. I feel that I have nothing to look forward to. Even so, I know that is an after effect of using nicotine for so long. I am glad to be smoke free, inspite of myself!
new me
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/26/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 94
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,256
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $470.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9
