Yeah, that was EXACTLY what I was talking about. It's like you're out of yourself just long enough to have a good time. You get lost in something interesting. Then the thought hits you - "Wow, I'm having a great time and I haven't noticed my anxiety in quite some time". Then, all of a sudden, it comes crashing right back into you.
Ugh, it is FRUSTRATING. It's like you can't escape it. I mean, I know it's just a habit; but it's a tough one to break, ya know?
Thanks a lot for your response. it means a lot to me to not feel so alone.
Sincerely,
-Tony