I sure can relate to the frustration you're feeling. But whoever said we were thinking rationally whilst in the middle of a panic attack?
You are examining your feelings about what the panic does to you with your Rational Mind. Of course, it's completely true and logical that you are not having a heart attack, stroke, whatever. BUT, when you are having a panic attack you are thinking with our Irrational Mind. Yes, death is imminent. Yes, I am going to die. Yes, I am having a heart attack.
I think the trick is to learn how to stop the panic before it starts, which is why I'm enrolled in the program on this site, so I can learn to do that. I, too, am way beyond frustrated with having this happen to me over and over. My Rational Mind is fed up. My Irrational Mind is rubbing its hands together gleefully and giggling in a corner waiting for the next panic attack to come so it can take over.
Wait until it finds out I have a new secret weapon. (hee hee hee)
I don't mean to sound flippant or invalidate what you are feeling in any way, but this is how I am coping at the moment. Basically it's take my meds, work the program, see my doctor, talk on this forum, and plot against the panic. I feel like a war is being waged between my two minds and I'm strategizing to beat the pants off the panic and my Irrational Mind.
I hope this is helpful in some way. I really identify with what you are saying. I am so sick of having panic and anxiety, that to compare it to a war is the best way to describe how I feel.
Keep talking to us. We're your reinforcements!
Sarah :)
