Hello Dream,
Like the money, you will find better ways to spend your time. Don't let the junky take you back to where you know you don't what to go.
If you hadn't smoked you wouldn't need all those breaks, you wouldn't have had an addiction to feed.
If you hadn't smoked, you wouldn't have felt stressed when the break didn't come at the same time the craves did, you wouldn't have had an addiction to feed.
If you hadn't smoked you could have spent more time in that place where you couldn't smoke to take care of business, doing it right because you wouldn't have had an addiction to feed.
It knows you. It has played you for a long time. DON'T YOU LET IT ANYMORE!!! IT STOPS RIGHT NOW, FROM THIS POINT ON!!! Put your addict under that rock and sit on it! Don't listen to it! Anything or any thought that ends in smoking or makes smoking appealing to you is the work of the junky. It knows everything that has worked before and will try them all. It won't give up so you have to be stronger and change all the rules so it can't play you like it has all this time.
The breaks were only relaxing because they allowed you to feed the addict and the addict backed off the craves while the drug flowed to reward you when you did feed it. That relaxation was a conditioned response. Like a trained animal that will do tricks for treats, it had you on a leash.
You're free now but not out of danger. Stay strong and stay smart. You have control now and that's something you must value as greatly as you do the quit, because they are the same thing. You took it from the addict and it wants it back. You hang on!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/15/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 220
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,400
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $924.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 35 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 23 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7