Hang in there, it is very frightening and crazy, but they assure we have our sanity. I am just learning to try and fight this struggle, but you can't feel too bad knowing there are so many of us out here seeking answers. Don't let the panic win. THink of what you want to accomplish and focus on the good days you have had, and if you have family, think of how blessed you are. I know it seems silly but sometimes if I get my mind going along those lines I can distract myself from the panic, the axiety, the songs that get stuck in my head and scary thoughts. ONe thing for sure, you may not but I do Believe in God, and in my belief he really wants the best for all his children, and sometimes we don't make the best of choices. I know I don't always. As we figure this all out we know one thing ,it is a cycle, the panic and axiety make it worse it is mean and nasty, but some how some way look toward the light and somehow we always manage to make it another day.