For the past few years I've been doing pretty much ok with my panic attacks. I would get them, but I wouldnt let them get in the way of me living my life. They got in the way for too long, and I wasnt going to live like that anymore.
A few weeks ago, I was driving home from a friends house and had one of the worst attacks i've had in years. I was paralyzed and become hysterical in my car. I ended up sitting in my car for almost an hour in a store parking lot at 1am crying bc i wanted to go home. In the end, I ended up calling my mother to come get me. I felt stupid... a 22 yr old calling mommy to come and get her.
Ever since then I now think that i'm going to have an attack every time i leave the house. I've stopped myself from going places just bc of the fear of another major one coming on. When i do go out for short trips, i seem to be constantly thinking to myself "im going to be fine, im going to be fine", or else i can almost feel an attack develop.
I just feel like i'm going back to where i started 7 years ago, and i cant live like that. I'm trying to fight this thing, but it has once again become a daily struggle for me, and im getting tired of fighting.
