you have no idea what your response has meant to me...i just registered at sheena's place.... thanks you have really saved me katie

Dear Katie; you may have to get a referal to see someone at the Toronto Hospital. So if you go to you family doctor, or any doctor, like your phychiatric doctor; and ask for a referal, they may be able to get you in. That is where you should begin. Then after they have assessed your situation, they may get you into Sheena's place. On the other hand, you may be able to get into Sheena's place if you ask them for an assessment first. One thing I can say about the Toronto Hospital is that they really come at it from a good angle, and make you feel good about yourself. It does involve group therapy though, and everybody has their cry once and a while as they reveal the sadness of the past. If you are extremely suffering from one of the eating disorders, they may even put you in the hospital for treatment. Sheena's place is a great place to hang out and meet other people just like you. Friends are important. As for me, you can ask me anything you want, or talk to me here on this site, but I am living in Japan now. The more you talk about it even on this site, with others too, the better off you will be. I wish you all the best....don't be afraid; I think 1/2 the population has eating disorders of some sort these days, even if they don't admit it...

Thanks Jose, I have taken the anxiety test and am in cbt for my panic. I guess I was more wondering what I can do about my eating disorder. This is something I am not comfortable sharing with my therapist. I am scared to mix two issues into one expensive session. Again, if anyone else has advice I would appreciate it! Thanks Redface, I will check out Sheena's place! And I would love to talk to you more. It may help to talk with other people that feel anxiety for similar reasons! Katie

Katie, Take the tests on the left hand side of the screen. They will help better assess the situation. You can send it to your doctor or just present it to him. This will give him a better idea of what is going on and you wouldn't have to say much. Take the step and you will feel better and get the assistance you need. Keep Strong, Josie _____________________________ The Panic Center Support Team.

hi redface, i am in toronto, canada... would love to chat more... do you have an msn address??? katie

katie; Where do you live? I also suffered with eating disorders of various types. When I was young I joined a Modelling agency self improvement course. I lost a lot of weight and went under a normal weight by about ten or twelve pounds. It was easy. Then as I got older and married I put on weight after taking the pill; I could not loose it; so I started becoming bulimic - not vomiting , but exercising profusely and cutting down foods, and taking laxatives every day. According to the hospital program I was enrolled in in Toronto Hospital, although this is normal behaviour for many, it is actually bulimia. After I lost quite a bit, I went back to normal eating. Then I put on 60 lbs. I again went into a bulimic phase with colonics, etc. Then I gained 70 or more lbs., and then I went on a strict no carb diet, exercise, but tried not to do the laxitives or colonics. I lost most of the weight; but after two years I couldn't do it anymore, and went back to old habits. I was so depressed at the time, having panic attacks etc., I went for help, and they put me on anti-depressants etc. I was so distressed I began binge eating in the evenings over what was happening in our lives. I was then enrolled in an eating disorder program at the Toronto Hospital which was really good. It showed how we should love ourselves despite our size, and love the inner person should come first. All of us in the classes had gone through some pretty terrible stuff in our lives leading to using food to cope. Many were models, or in acting or dancing, and had to maintain a fine figure or loose their jobs. Some of us had problems at home. All of us buy into the thin attractive look portrayed in magazines. Also, doctors are always trying to make us loose weight for health reasons, so it becomes a vicious circle. After the hospital programs were finished, I was invited to a free place for those who have gone to the hospital programs called Sheena's place. You can find it on the internet. Look it up and read what they have to say. They have various programs for people dealing with these problems, and I thought it was great. Mind you, I still have a problem with my weight, I blame it partially on my Anti-depressants, partly on my thyroid problems, and partly on lack of self c

Hey guys First of all, thank you all for your support and kind words, towards all of my posts and I hope in some way I have supported many of you. I posted this somewhere once before and kind of felt lost because I didn't think that anyone else understood my own kind panic and anxiety. Until I read tinkle's post today. I suffer from eating disorders, which I am growing to learn is a huge part of my panic. I am wondering if there is anyone else here that experiences a huge fear of eating because they are afraid of wieght gain. I am not quite sure where to go for help with this? I have been suffering for 10 years with anorexia and bulimia. I was admitted as a young girl but refused and lied my way through treatment. Now as an adult I regret this. As I have developed extreme panic in many situations, which I believe is due to my eating disorders. I have read that anxiety has a lot to do with eating disorders, but don't really know where to turn or what to do. I am involved in cbt for my panic, but am not sure how to receive help with the other issue. This (eating stuff)terrifies me (possibly due to my ongoing panic, the next time I vomit I am sure that my esophagus will split and I will die from an overflowing of blood into my lounges)into thinking that it is going to kill me. I feel weak and tired all the time and have been dropping weight like crazy. But, point is I am so scared and this gets the really big panic attacks into full force. I feel really alone and I wonder if a support specialist could direct me in the right place. I am afraid to talk to my therapist about this because I am seeing her for panic and not these other issues. I am a Canadian, from Toronto. I have never tried to receive help as an adult before and wonder what I can do or where I can turn. I feel terrified and lost. If anyone else can relate I would love to hear some sort of input. I feel like I am becoming a lost cause. Thanks for listening, I hope everyone is doing well love, katie