More concretely I feared a blow up with the ex. That has always been a huge trigger for me that I can't control. Well this week brought a huge blow up--far worse than anything I could have imagined.
So far so good, but this has been the hardest I've had to fight since the first couple of days. I even found myself walking to the store to buy a pack and just have one. Luckily the walk lasted longer than the crave...
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 7/26/2008 Smoke-Free Days: 26 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 780 Amount Saved: $130.00 Life Gained: Days: 3 Hrs: 22 Mins: 36 Seconds: 8
My biggest fear was the quit itself. I was afraid of everything, the biggest of all Life. How will I do or cope with anything without a cig? I really thought that I would never enjoy my life or anything in it again. HOW STUPID!! It took some time, but life is great.. I had to struggle just like Tresa, but when you learn you can beat it, it is so much easier. I wish I would have done it sooner.
((hugs)) Kelly
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 12/6/2007 Smoke-Free Days: 259 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 7,770 Amount Saved: $971.25 Life Gained: Days: 21 Hrs: 2 Mins: 49 Seconds: 23
My biggest fear is that I won't figure out what to replace smoking with...... there's tons of options, but that little addict in me likes to say things like "boring! None of that is as good as a cigarette!" And wonderful chit chat like that. So as I go through these horrible withdrawals, I'm making an ongoing list of things to combat that very real fear.
Deborah
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 8/18/2008 Smoke-Free Days: 2 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 48 Amount Saved: $14.40 Life Gained: Days: 0 Hrs: 7 Mins: 11 Seconds: 38
I have to agree with Tresa - my biggest fear was failing - so many other areas of my life I have failed and a lot of times I let myself think that I am a failure.
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 1/7/2008 Smoke-Free Days: 226 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,068 Amount Saved: $1,586.52 Life Gained: Days: 20 Hrs: 11 Mins: 27 Seconds: 1
Great thread topic! We have to face so many of our fears when quitting, it is part of the challenge. It's a great feeling of accomplishment to realize that you've faced your fears and won!
