before my panic attacks..after I had my daughter I would have at least 2-3 espressos a day! I loved my espresso! When she was 7 mths is when I had my first attack..I found espresso made it worse, because, like you I tried to have a normal existence, wasnt willing to give up the things I loved....I used to love drinking wine too...I switched to decaf espresso, and I drink minimally. I still have the odd glass here and there, still have my decaf (better than nothing)....and I feel fine. Although it will never be the way it used to be, but to be honest with you, I dont even notice it. Dont think about it or dwell on it. Probably better for you in the long run with or without panic attacks!