Thanks Bob and vaslim - yes I'm ok now. I didn't smoke and I am fixing me some fish and succotash for supper. Addiction is no stranger to me. I weighed 261 in 1980 ( 130 now ). When I lost weight I took up drinking way too much. I quit drinking and upped my smoking by at least 50%. When I read another's post - I forget his name but the poker guy - about addiction simplified I had some mixed feelings. With my history what I know now is that my brain is hard wired to be addictive. If I can get my hands, face, or feet on it I can get addicted to it, lol. Seriously, for me I just have to find other ways to keep that part of my brain occupied. It's hard and I can't do it alone or by pretending I am just fine when I'm not. Mostly, I am! I'm optimistic. But those dark days come for me just like they do for us all. And I thank you for being here.
Hugs,
Joyce
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 4/4/2009 Smoke-Free Days: 9 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 450 Amount Saved: $123.75 Life Gained: Days: 1 Hrs: 8 Mins: 41 Seconds: 46
Good for you and for your friend who lent her ear for support. I had sorta the same thought process going on today, I thought well if I hid one pack and just smoked one every now and then, it would be ok. I ended up just having to get in the car and leave for a while. I've chewed gum until my cheeks are starting to ache! I'm ok now, how about you??? Hope you are hanging tough!!
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 4/11/2009 Smoke-Free Days: 2 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 40 Amount Saved: $11.80 Life Gained: Days: 0 Hrs: 6 Mins: 18 Seconds: 7
This is just way too funny or maybe just right for me today. Rough morning. I wanted to ask the gardener if he had a cigarette ... then I thought of just one pack, secretly smoked in the bushes outside, poor things ... then I remembered that one pack for me leads to three then to twenty ... more is never enough for this addict. So I called my friend and she talked to me for an hour. She asked where my suckers were and I told her they were in a bowl on the coffee table. She asked where I smoked and I told her - so now I have suckers in every room of the house - and one in the bushes, just in case . And now I'll spend some time with ya'll! I gonna try to find the pledge page now.
Hugs,
Joyce
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 4/4/2009 Smoke-Free Days: 9 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 450 Amount Saved: $123.75 Life Gained: Days: 1 Hrs: 7 Mins: 44 Seconds: 44
I can't visualize a chicken having a pedicure
. But anyway, Sparky and I want to give you a
. And now I'll spend some time with ya'll! I gonna try to find the pledge page now.
