I had such a wonderful day yesterday things were good and then I woke up this morning, should have stayed in bed. took the dog for a walk I have a bichon frise (a little fru fru dog) and some guy yelled at me because he was two cm on his lawn. I coward and apologized and said do not worry i try not to let it happen again, but i was thinking was put a fence up you jerk if you don't want dogs on your lawn. then I get to work and well (info you'll need) last week i was straighting up a shelf at work (i am a retail merchandiser) and a box too high for me to see was unstable and fell over my head and hit this elderly lady. I ran to get a supervisor to help her and everything was okay so I thought, her daughter has now got a lawyer, and my boss took me in the office today to explain that this was my fault this happened as I was irresponsible. getting called into the office started me hyperventilating and after the session was over I started to get that funny feeling in my stomach that tells me a panic attack is beginning. I wrestled with it and could not concentrate on anything I was doing after that. I then asked to leave work as I was very anxious and shaking and very scared. He said we do not have enough staff we need you to stay. this was very trying for me I wanted to cry but I could not for some reason, all I could concentrate on was the tightness in my chest and trying not to start my head from twitching, which as you know can be very embarrassing. I want to feel good that I made it through this day, but all i can think about is how sick I am and a room with a view a bed and three squares a day would suit me just fine right now, how do people expect us to put up with such stress all the time? business is business, but what about the human aspect. I am not a robot, I can not just shut it off I have feelings! I know this sounds angry but I am worried this stress will cause me to have a manic episode.
