MM,
I felt your pain as I read your post. I felt the same pain nearly 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with an aggressive Sarcoma near my lung. No one could give me a prognosis and to this day we take one day at a time.
The chemo. is horrible as is anything else they throw at you, but life is the most precious thing. The battle is an enormous one, but I found that trying to remain positive as I had during my quit did help enormously. I reckoned that I had fought the Nicodemon and won and by God I was going to fight this! There were a few down days, but really not so many......you struggle onwards and upwards. The tests are trying and exhausting, particularly emotionally, but stay strong and you will do better.
Now 2 years later, I am feeling almost normal again. Am I cured?........No, that is not possible. The original tumour has vanished, but it may return, no one knows, but I can live my life almost as I wish, and remaining in this positive frame of mind does help with any cancer. Do not dwell on sad, bad stories, rather look forward to whatever good things may be to come as you fight your way through.
I am thinking of you MM and praying for you to have the strength for what is ahead.
NEVER LOOK BACK. THE FUTURE IS AHEAD!
Love Lolly.
My Mileage:My Quit Date: 11/25/2004
Smoke-Free Days: 1911
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 66,885
Amount Saved: �9,555.00
Life Gained:Days: 253
Hrs: 15
Mins: 42
Seconds: 1