Yikes, Lil, I don't know if you even want to hear from me right now.
Yeah, I caved and smoked, and you didn't, so GO YOU!!
My deal was, one cigarette will relieve the incredible pressure built up by the quit.
NOT!!
One cigarette might relieve pressure (no doubt!!), but far worse, it re-opens the door to the addiction we (I) once had under wraps.
There is no relief valve that involves nicotine; we simply have to invent ways of dealing with the pressure and letting it off. Opening the gate to the addiction is, and this is the voice of experience talking, the absolute worst couse of action. The universe is vast -- we simply have to find new outlets for the pressure, new ways of releasing it. What those are, beyond ice water, breathing, Step 4 Emergency Coping Plans, and the rest, I don't know. Maybe we can find them together?
I just turned back from a total dead-end; take my hand so you don't go back down that treacherous and deadly path.
pete
My Mileage:My Quit Date: 9/13/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 3
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 150
Amount Saved: $42.38
Life Gained:Days: 0
Hrs: 17
Mins: 46
Seconds: 11