I am on day 29 and the quit seems to be going okay. I feel like the cravings are getting further and further apart. Its been an interesting journey so far. I haven't had one of those "BIG" ones yet and, to be honest, I have no idea what that is. Is it the ultimate craving?
Charm ~ I was a closet smoker and I was lucky (that's not the right word) that the two people I was hiding it from happened to be smokers as well. I grew up hating my parent's for smoking. I would yell at them and feel so embarassed when I would go to highschool and people would accuse me of smoking b/c I smelled of smoke (from them). I swore I would never smoke. And, then I moved away from home and started smoking. I was so embarassed and ashamed of it that I could never build the courage to tell them. When I would go home for the summers, I would go for lot's of 'smoking' walks. I think that I could hide the smell from them b/c there smell had been destroyed from being smokers as well. Anyways, that's how I was able to conceal the smell. I also went through alot of toothpaste, soap, body sprays, mints, etc to keep the stink away. But, who knows maybe they knew all along. I think half the time I was just trying to hide it from myself.
Keep the quit. I love reading posts by both of you....very inspiring
I am on day 43 and right there with ya. I am scared also of the BIG one coming, that I won't be able to say NO to...it is scary. I think that is what they mean by One day at a time.
I have ocassionaly smelled smoke, but I believe mine is from getting some of my winter jackets & sweaters out because of the weather turning colder and they still smell bad from last years smoke.. I am washing what I can and taking to the cleaners what I have to..
That is one thing I have not been able to understand about people saying they hid there smoking (closet smokers) how did they ever hide the smell??? I talked to one of my co-workers the other day and asked her if I smelled that bad all the time or just when I went out to smoke, she said all the time mostly, but worst when I came back in and when I had it on my clothes from smoking in the car.
Spark... We will get thru this.. Hang in there...
Charm
Freedom Meter
Smoke-Free Days: 43 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 878 Amount Saved: $159.10 Life Gained: Days: 6 Hrs: 2 Mins: 42 Seconds: 54
I am on day 44 and the last few days have been interesting. There been having moments of craves. I have a friend who quit the same day as I did and I was telling him about it and he was experiencing the same thing. Then today I swear I could smell cigarette smoke, what is that about???? Craves I can understand but never have experience the smoke thing.
I can live with the craves, but it is when the strong compulsions/obsession comes along that I get scared and so far I haven't had the big one yet.
I make sure I ask for help when I wake up and thank my God at night. I come here and read and see what is going on and make sure I stay focused. The big one------I DO NOT WANT TO STINK!!! Anytime we go somewhere and you stand by a smoker OMG!! I feel so bad that I put my family and friends though that. Holy cow, they never said a word. Got to love them don't you? So anyway that is where I am at, how about you guys??
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