Good day all, long time reader, first time poster. Brief background: started panic attacks 4 yrs ago, got them under control, lot of stress in life lately, getting 1 a day for past month, usually at night. Take ativan whenever I get too bad.
While phyiscally I think reasoning for them includes my tiredness and smoking too much/too late @ night, these have never seemed the focal points as I could go a long time without smoking or be rested, still have em.
However tonight was weird. At 11:30pm I was on the computer finishing up a report when I started having a panic attack. It got too bad, and I took an ativan.
I lay in bed for about 30 minutes doing the usual jerking of my limbs, freaking out bla bla bla. We all know what its like :)
Then suddenly I felt in a trance. As if my subconscious ahd taken over. I suddenly decided I had to go see a specific part in a movie(The Rundown), as it would make me feel better.
One problem: DVD remote has been missing for 6 days. Searched high and low, no luck. We gutted the whole living room pretty much, and couldn't find it.
Anyawy I get up, go downstairs and turn the TV on. Ignoring the fact that the DVD player is useless without the remote, I power it on, and find the Rundown DVD. I then place it in the machine, and the menu screen loads up.
Out of nowhere, I have a brainwave. Something somewhere says "Go look on the inside of the couch, right at the bottom". Took me some searching, but there it was.
Instantly, panic attack was gone.
As strange as it may seem...could my panic attacks be coming on due to my subconscious telling me I have to do something, or trying to get me to do something? I'm stressed at the moment with a lot of issues, and also am behind on avrious things, so it could be telling me to catch up. However this incident just made me feel like my whole subconscious was telling me "Okay, you're having a panic attack for a reason tonight: lets find that darn DVD remote".
Ahhh...I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm sleepy, I may be crazy lol....I'd appreciate all your thoughts.