I have had several relapse dreams, and they all end as yours did. I was upset that I had smoked. I didn't like it. I felt nasty. I worried about how I smelled. I worried about going through detox again. Ultimately, this is why I gave away the last of my cigarettes (5 whole packs) that I had been keeping around to maintain a personal sense of control; I had a dream that I had smoked, and got worried that I actually had done it in the night!
From what I have heard from friends who have quit, this is pretty common. My best friend, who has been quit for over 5 years, says she still occasionally has one of these, and it always ends with, "Oh, $h--, now I have to start quitting all over again." Another friend said her husband would have the dream, wake up, and search the trash for butts, wrappers etc. to make sure it wasn't real.
Amazing how powerful of a hold this thing has/ had over our psyches, eh? And it sure is nice to know that it's just a dream.
Last night I had a dream that I smoked,and it was not good,the taste was bad the smoke coming out of my mouth made me ill! I woke up and said to myself thank God it was just a dream, I didn't want the demon to get the best of me and he didn't it was just a DREAM! Cheers all!
