I have been under an extreme amount of stress lately and a couple days ago I had my "first" panic attack in months. I had only a couple hours of sleep and was tired, but I cooked supper anyway, I was in the midst of getting it prepared when I turned to my partner and asked him " what else did I say we were having for supper??" Normally, I would just think that it was because of being tired. I didn't think a whole lot about it and once I started eating I think that I began to stress out about not being able to remember something simple as this. I thought to myself " am I going crazy?" I began having racing thoughts in my head and yep before you know it, I was in full panic mode. I began focusing on the fact that I thought that I was going crazy and things around me started feeling like I was dreaming, which of course makes you worse and the panic lasted for over an hour:( I finally took a nap and I was okay after this.
The problem is... I have associated panic with being home, since it happened here. I have been on edge for the past 2 days, scared that it will happen once I sit down to supper again. I feel so silly right now even thinking this because I know the reason it happened was probably because of the stress. Now I am focusing on my thoughts and wondering if even the normal ones are weird, and if they are I start getting anxious. I am so afraid of having another attack that I am trying to avoid anything that could make me have another( prob why I am focused on my thoughts so much). Can anyone relate?? Or maybe just some advice how I can calm down until I am able to see my therapist?
Thanks
