Hi!
I've been a non-smoker for 21 days! Well, I had a slip yesterday. I smoked half a cigarette and was disgusted by the taste. Funny enough it was my all-time favorite brand. I still consider myself as a non-smoker because I don't want to have to start over the countdown.
I'm on Nicoderm patches (started at step 2). I used to smoke around 12 cigarettes a day for about ten years. I'ts all goig really smooth with patches. The worst cravings were on the ''first times''. For example, first time driving a long distance, first time drinking alcohol....
BUT LETS' TALK ABOUT THE SLIP. I've been really tired for five days, snoozing my alarm until I woke up completely lost 4 hours later and missed school/work. Yeah, five days in a row. sleeping around 12 hours a night and waking up hating myself for being such a lazy ass. I know quitting smoking can cause fatigue but yesterday was the day I needed to go buy my nicotine patches for the week. Was too lazy and depressed to go. As a result; I was a wreck, crying all day in bed for almost nothing, trying to explain to my relatives they did everything they could to help me and my crisis wasn't their fault at all. I just needed to be in my dark spot and let it pass.
So yeah, before going to bed after I cried my entire body, I asked a cigarette. It wasn't relieving. I didn't really had a craving, I just feel like my body was on autopilot. It tasted like sh**. Today, I was able to go get my patches. I feel good now.
Did something like that happened to anyone? Will I always be a wreck without my dose of nicotine? Is it normal to have such intense mood switch?
I always had anxiety issues but I don't have depression history. I found it kind of interesting to feel this way in the past days. I know I don't really have anything to worry about, and I was fully aware that the reasons for my yeasterday's tantrum were ridiculous, I knew it but still felt depressed, well, cause, that's depression.
(I, still feel good generally and I am far from having the thoughts..)
