Thanks for posting this information and reminding me that alcoholicism is a desease that can be treated. And that there is proper treatment. This website is a god send to me. I have been spending my afternoon, reading and repsonding to as many postings as possible. It helps to talk about my problem with others who can freely share thier thoughts with me.
As I have stated before in other postings this my first day of facing that I am an Alcholic and need to addmit it to myself and seek a recovery support group. I am currently seeking AAA support meetings in my area to begin attending them before any court orders that will require me to attend.
I know it's not going to be easy or convient at first but I am willing to take what ever steps are needed and I have the support of my mom and other family friends. I may also require me to exam my marriage, which I believe is loveless and a contributor to my emotional unhappiness. I will be seeing a addition and marriage counseler next week for my first session. So far I have seemed to get supportive news from the family outreach services from my job. I have decided to face my problems head on and if necessary make big changes in my life to get better. This may mean divorcing my abusive spouse or seeking counseling to discover what the root of my problems are. My mother seems to think it's got a lot to do with my marrieage to an older woman who has always tried to ware the paints in our relationship. By controlled my money and ability to freely enjoy my time alone or with others. I have no friends from work over because my house is alway unkept by my wife and I am embarssed for anyone other than her friends to see it.
I am a profesional and would not like to have my co-workers see how I live. I take grate care to keep my lawn serviced and neat so that my neighbors think I have the rest of my house organized also. I recently had my kitchen remodled and painted but my spouse will not keep the dishs done. I have always had to clean up before anyone important comes over.
Once in a while her company will come over unexpcectd and eat up most of our food. But she to has a unkept home with trouble getting remodeling projects completed. I now understand that my problem are much deeper that they appear on the surface. But, I can not blame anyone else for excepting this type of life and drinking to deal with my issues.
A spouse who refuses to help me stop drinking and continue to use drugs and alcholal in front of my is of no use to my future plans. I am trying to get a temporary assignment to where my home town is in order to start my divorce and recovery programs. This will allow me to work in one town and come home on weekends to demonstrate that I have not abandon my home while the divorce goes throught. On got peace of news is that because of my retired military status, I might be possible to file in my town of record before entering the service, which might be favorable to me with the settelment. I have only one son who is in college and is now able to understand my unhappiness. I understand the he will still love me as his father, if I can stop drinking. I have decided not to be affraid of living as a single middle aged man with the possiblity of not finding some to share my life with right away, but my mother says the happiness will find me if I pray and read the bible.
