Hello everyone,
thank you for the people who posted to me directly, i had a few days where i couldnt log onto this site for some reason! I have to say i spent so long reading different posts and sometimes i thought "did i write that" it helps me to know that i am not alone in this journey!
I am glad to say that there is hope, i have tried so many times and this time i succeeded! I am proud to say that today is my seventh day without alcohol in my life, and whilst at times it has been tricky i feel like a totally new person, i am starting to like myself and in time i am sure this will turn to love.
My relationship with my partner has already improved, i have the pleasure of enjoying my time with him and not with him being cross at me because of my drinking - he enjoys talking to the calm and sober me. I like it too.
There have been so many things i have noticed in my last week, and i wanted to share these with you - if you read my original posts you will see i was in a bad bad place, now i am filled with hope!
1 - i no longer wake up in a state of shock or horror of what i might have said or done the night before
2 - not being a morning person i dont "leap" out of bed singing songs from the sound of music, but i do groan, hit snooze and get up a few moments later - once i get up i feel fine, i have a routine and i get on with things
3 - cleaning out my cats litter box is such an easier task whilst not having a hangover :)
4 - My eyes have started to sparkle again
5 - my skin already looks a nicer pink colour
6 - i sleep properly (well almost, i woke up once last night)
7 - i dont have night sweats, shakes, shivers or have panic attacks ( i have been taking kalms to keep me calm which is a combination of valerine root and a few other herbs, all natural and seems to help keep me calm)
8 - I have more money
9 - I am actually enjoying my life
10 - i know watch tV programmes in the evening and remember what happened.
These are just a few benefits i have noticed - and i hope everyone else soon finds there lives change as much as mine has - i'm not saying there havent been times where i have been tempted, but these are fleeting thoughts and i say NO NO NO in my head, and take a deap breath and make myself a nice cup of tea or juice.