Hi,
Thanks for your feedback guys, I really appreciate it. I hope you're right Vickers and it is just a temporary thing and I'm just having side effects coming off my meds. I'm finding everything so challenging all of a sudden. I spent ten minutes yesterday talking myself into going for a walk around our street which only took me two or three minutes to do in the end! And today I had to really focus and try to keep calm when I went out for a short drive. I was doing these things much easier before. I just know that the day that I cave in and say no I'm not going for a walk or a drive then that will be the beginning of the end. But man, is it hard to try and set foot out the front door, I hate feeling like this again, it's so easy to tell everyone to stay positive when I'm coping but now that it's much harder for me I realise again just how hard it is to be positive.
Alison, we've planned our wedding but haven't set a date yet but it will probably be within one year...we've planned it so that I've got that long to try and get to a stage where I can handle standing in front of heaps of people and then having to get on a plane to go on our honeymoon...it seems terrifying just thinking about it, just as well I have a good bit of time before it all happens!