Hey, everyone.
I'm coming rather quickly to my third month "celebration" of being completely sober now and I just wanted to share a few thoughts and observations that I have had over the past short while.
Most noticeably for me is how drastically my thought patterns have changed.
I worry so much less now. I worry less about all kinds of stuff, and am finding that I am just feeling so much more at lease with a lot of things going on in my life now.
I'm sure the major reason for this is that I am dealing with circumstances and situations which arise in my life from time-to-time in much more efficient and proactive ways, but it is more than that. I don't seem to be letting things bother me as they used to, if they can not be dealt with properly, and I seem to be able to handle those I can deal with promptly and more effectively.
A few weeks ago I was feeling a bit let down, feeling that I should feel so much differently, so much better, and so much more "alive" having abstained from drinking for such a long period of time. But I pushed these thoughts aside and kept moving forward in my life of sobriety, knowing full well that I was not making a mistake trying to maintain my sobriety.
I have been sober for periods of time before and I tried to bring the great feelings of success, wellbeing, and self-worth back to me from these previous sober stints to the forefront of my thoughts this time around.
I am finding that I still waver back and forth between feelings of accomplishment, success, and pride, and those of great effort, struggle, and defeat, but the one constant certainly has to be the lessening and / or weakening of worrisome thoughts in much of my life.
This is, a very GOOD thing!
Be well,
David.
