Hi Allison, Thanks for caring. I did not post for about 3 days, had a real rough time and I was in bed alot I did not even have the energy to boot up the computer. I am trying to recover physically and mentally. THe kidney thing and the rough medicine did some strange things to me and they keep going on. My son did go back to school, its a new big school and a adjustement, I hope it goes well for him, I need to be there for him, my husband starts his new job next week, {See my other post if your want} real mixed feelings! I feel like I am slowly climbing out of my big black hole I fell into to, very slowly but its a start, being so physically sick and the emergency room, wrong med etc.... It increased the fear anaxiety and panic, I hear that is typical of panic sufferer's. I am just trying to get well and feel normal again Allison, I have lost my coping skills and self-control and that is a scary thing. You are teacher! What a rewarding job, I feel that is the most important job in the world, teaching and shaping our young for the future, you sound like you are a great one. Let me know how you are doing. I am still on the Paxil, no relief yet, but hopefully soon. GOd bless, Debbie.