Thanks for the support everyone and the reminder to take care of myself: a nice bubble bath and reading a great book helped me through, a nap will be in order today.
Drinking would have been my go-to comforter but I am working to find other ways to deal with the emotions and look after myself. Talking about my feelings of vulnerability to my husband is hard. My default is to protect him and not share my fears. My daughters are 22 and 25 and I try to be strong for them so they don't worry. Not sure if this is the best strategy?
I see the surgeon on July 22nd to discuss treatment options. I am still going ahead with a holiday, although delayed, to see my parents in Ontario and visit New York City with my sister. I am happy about that.
It is hard for me to ask for help I am recognizing. I fly in late at night and instead of renting a car, I asked my sister to pick me up, even though it will be a very late night for her after she gets home. People want to help and are happy to.
I'm sorry to hear about the news of your cancer diagnosis. It's one thing to have to digest this news yourself, and another to handle how others react to your news. I imagine it is exhausting among so many other emotions.
Is there someone who can be your 'spokesperson' during this initial time? A friend or family member who can inform those important to you in order to relieve you (so to speak) from the situation of helping others feel better about your diagnosis?
Keeping busy is important. Fill your time with the things that put a smile on your face. What activities do you enjoy doing? What are some of your hobbies?
Have to say that now that I am back from holidays and contending with a cancer diagnosis, I am feeling down. It often seems that I am the one to make others feel better about my diagnosis. Need to keep myself busy?