I can totally relate to it, we use alcohol as a medicine. But because we are mentally and bodily affected, we can't just have one or two drinks. When we stop, we have to face our life situations without our friend alcohol. All sorts of emotions manifests. Boredom, anger, irritability, restlessness, anxiety..... all are some form of un manageability. We call it the spiritual malady. If we dont take care of it, that will lead us back into drinking. And then that vicious cycle. I drank and at the end of the drinking career went through a phase of stopping, getting restless, irritable..... picking back up again...suffering..... stopping.. that vicious cycle kept going on until I walked into the rooms of AA a broken man.