Hi Lynnp. When i read your message...i related to it exactly. Lynn, you are not alone. I feel the same and i'm sure many others do too. I swear, i feel the exact same. Its interesting because today, as i was driving, i was thinking the exact same thing to myself. I'm SO INTO MY OWN HEALTH and i'm monitoring every change in my breathing and heart beat that i forget everyone around me. I feel like I just dont' want to talk to anybody. My fiance is SO SUPPORTIVE and i love him to death. But i keep fearing that one day he will just get fed up and leave me. I feel soooo insecure about myself. I just keep worrying about myself and i'm afraid that i'm not able to give him any attention. I want a normal life.....i want normal thoughts....i want to be the person i dream of being....the old me. And i'm so sure that you want this too..to be your old self again.
This anxiety has also caused me to feel down. I never believed in depression.....but i'm starting to question whether i'm depressed or not. I do feel sad all the time because of these negative thoughts. I try to control them.......but its hard when i'm feeling as though i cannot breath. I'm trying my best.
U are not alone Gina. And dont' worry, nothing is wrong with you. The doctors didnt' miss anythign. And i have to tell myself that too, cause i think like you. We ARE FINE AND HEALTHY. Here is something that my homeopathic doctor told me that i will never forget: " Anxiety is NOT YOU. It is just an ordeal that you are dealing with now. And it will soon come to an end."
We have to start detaching this idea that we are anxious/panicy people. We are not. We are just dealing with some anxiety now. and i promise that soon we will all be free from it. Just hang in there. This too shall pass.
