This is my first post here and I am a little embarassed about my issues, so please bare with me here.
About a year and a half ago, I started developing urination problems. At random times, I would just suddenly have to go without warning and without any ability to hold it for more than a couple of minutes. At first I figured it was a urinary tract infection. I'd never heard of a guy having one, but I figured it wasn't impossible. So I went to the doctor, told him about it, and he gave me some pills to get rid of it.
But it didn't go away. I went through three different doctors and one urologist, each prescribing me different things, and none of which able to find a single thing physically wrong with me. The urologist told me that maybe I just drink too much soda, so I wrote off soda, caffeine, and chocolate and haven't had any for almost a year. Finally, they told me to see a therapist, which I did at my college. He told me that he believed it was anxiety related and, after a twenty minute session, put me on lexapro.
I'm beginning to think I have a form of agoraphobia. When I'm out and about, it becomes much more of a problem. I worry that I wont be able to find a restroom and that I'll embarass myself. I worry that when I'm out with friends, I'll constantly have to duck away from them to use a bathroom and that they will think less of me. And worst of all, when I am stuck in the car on family road trips, I have to make the family stop almost every half hour, prompting everyone to get mad at me (not that family trips weren't stressful enough before this!).
Does this sound like a panic disorder to any of you? I don't know anymore. I've seen lots of doctors and none of them know what is wrong with me. The lexapro did nothing for the months upon months that I took it, even at higher doses. The college shrink could only see me once every two months or so at best, and then only for about thirty minutes, so I finally stopped going. And went off the medication. As long as I am at home or in a safe place, I feel fine enough. It comes up now and again, but it isn't something I am worried about.
But when I go out....it's like I have to know exactly how I can get out of there to a restroom or something bad will happen. When I'm with my friends and hav