Hiya Krystin, I can certainely sympathise with you . I think all of us at this site can. We all experience things that are similar as a whole or in part to what you are experiencing. So this is a great place to vent and get advice from people who will understand , support and cheer you on :) I am sorry to hear that your anxiety levels and panic levels are so high lately. I know those periods can be rough. And i totally understand that being afraid something is physically wrong with you part, i have been struggling with this too. I can say tho that it has gotten better. When i relapsed in december, i was a mess, i was anxious 99% of the time had multiple panic attacks it was just a pain in the you know what. I used to check mypulse at the neck 300 times a day if not more. I went back to my therapist, and i have been doing this program for two weeks. I can honestly say things are better. I worry less about being sick and i am slowly getting the heart rate checking thing under control. The support group helps a lot they give great tips, encouragement and support. For me what works atm is like Samanthat said. Making sure i am breathing correctly to calm my body so i can calm my mind. Also, being aware of my thoughts, the ones that make me anxious and trying to challenge them. Also, challenging myself to do little things that make me anxious ( and i say little as in makes me a little anxious) so that when i succeed i get more confident in myself. Plus, i take time to notice every little success in my day and i do positive self-talk about all of them. Anyway, that is what seems to have been helping. Also what has been helping is finding people (my therapist and this support group) who really understand what i am going through. Sometimes i find talking ( or just writting helps). I am in the beginning of owrking the program but i also beleive working the program can help. IT is based on Cognitive Behavior therapy i beleive and that kind of stuff works great on anxiety if you do the work required :)
Anway, i am just rambling along aren't I lol So hang in there, it can and it will get better!
-Diva