I agree with Radha that you should 1 talk to our doctor and make a plan you can be comfortabl with. I also think like radha that you should give the meds a chance for at least 6 weeks, if you decided to take them, to see how your body adjusts, unless the side effects are just too bad.
I am not a big fan of meds but i do tke them. I could not sleep at all after my relapse and thus couldn't not get a normal hold back on my reality and could not advance in my therapy work.So now i take Clonazepam (Rivotril, Klonopin) cut only late in the evenings to relax and so i can sleep. During the day, i take nothing, come what may so that i know it is me that has the control. Eventually i will get off the meds. But i figure taking them responsibly to help you get through therapy can be a viable option. In my case it helped a lot.
But if you wanna make a go of it without the medication, it has been done before and it can work very well. It has been shown in studies, serious studies, that CBT is just as effective as medication to control and deal with anxiety. So whatever you decide has to be what you are comfortable with. And whatever you decide we will be here cheering you on :)
-Diva
