Ever since the shootings at Viginia Tech I have noticed that my panic attacks are more frequent. Whats got me confused is that I am not even in the USA. But something about the story caught my attention and now the panic is hitting more frequently and harder. Then in turn my depression increases and I become almost zombie like. I'm just going thru the motions and trying to get thru the day. It also doesn't help that the apartment managers have been testing the fire alarm system for the past 3 days. They also have to come into your apartment to double check the smoke detector. So between hearing the alarm and the panic of waiting for the people to show up my panic attacks are almost feeling continuse, I get over one then the alarm starts and I have another attack. I cannot wait to have this day over with,maybe I will be able to resume my immerssion therapy which I haven't been doing to well at.Since there were people coming in to my apartment,I had to stay in so that I could be here when the entered, since I have already been robbed once before I won't let anyone in without me being here, so I've been a recluse for 3 days. But I'm going to try tommorrow to get outside now that the weather here is getting better and try to catch up on my immerssion therapy.Sorry for ranting on I seem to do that eveytime I post something,I seem to have verbal diahhria and don't now when to stop.So I'm stopping know and thank you for letting my rant on
"B"