Hi, I do sympathise with you, and wonder why your doctor wants you to quit taking your anti-depressants ? I too have had anxiety/panic, but have now thankfully overcome this, but remain on antidepressants as it seems that I have a diposition to this. I used to set myself goals, and time scales to come off, not sure why, but now accept that to lead a relatively normal life, I need them !! I now no longer have any hang ups about this, like I used to. If I was diabetic I would need to take medication for the rest of my life, so I personally don't see the difference. Depression is definately not your fault, you didn't ask for it !! Hope the other site is helpful for you, maybe its worth discussing with your doctor ? Good luck