Hello KittyCat :)
I do relate to what you are saying, it is true that when I feel less anxious my reaction to things is much more mellow. I hadnèt really stopped to think of it but now that I did I really relate to yoour take on this. Thanks for sharing :)
-Diva
Hi Diva,
I find the more anxious I am, the more I get annoyed/ANGRY at things-from small things (like something being misplaced) to big things (like people forgetting to meet me altogether!!). What you described is quite familiar to me (feeling like screaming over the situation) and not understanding why you feel so angry all the time. I find it overwhelming at times. I think to myself "why do I have to be so miserable"? I really wonder if there isn't some connection between anxiety and anger where people (probably unconsciously) mask their anxiety with anger to deal with it. Anyone care to comment on this?
Kittcat
Well, the rest of my week went ok. I was tired so I took time to rest. I did take time for myself to get my relaxation time and breathing exercises done. I also took time to do my hour walks. I invited my friend on one of my walks and that was really nice :) Today, i spent some time with my mom. I have been trying to take time for myself and to do my exposure work and thought challenging. I find today I feel much better :)
Oh and yes! I do do journaling everyday. Well not everyday but most days lol I find it very helpful.
Thanks for asking how I am and thanks for the advice :)
-Diva
Diva,
How did the rest of your day go? Are you journaling each day? This can help pinpoint areas to work on. Did you take some you time to pat yourself on the back and acknowledge you are doing great?
Keep up the good work and continue to challenge those thoughts :)
Josie
Well yesterday I managed to be semi-productive at work after my ranting session with you guys. Then I came home and decided to take a nice walk with some good music to feel better. So 15 minutes into my hour of daily walk, my mp3 batteries died and I had no spares! That did not help my mod one iota. Then when I came home my hubby was playing video games and it took like 5 minutes of me sitting staring at him before he even said hello. Then when I told him it would have been nice for him to greet me nicely like I greet him everyday, he said oh sorry I was so busy with my game I didn't notice you had come in...THAT did not help my mood one Iota. Then he kept on ignoring my and playing his game and then that's when I just broke down and cried hysterically like a big baby. Eventually my husband figured out something was wrong and he came to give me a hug and help me settle down. Then he ordered me some vietnameese food for supper as a treat and he helped me settle in to watch one of my favorite shows.
Well the good food and the great show helped my mood lol then my hubby took time to play cards with me and that made me feel even better.
Then I went to bed early but I did not sleep well so I am tired this morning. But at least I am in a better mood lol I wish my hubby would go to bed earlier tho. HE stays up after I go to bed and it keeps me up. Then he sets his alarm clock super early and resets it every 5 minutes for like 20 minutes to 30 minutes which means I am up when he is. And he might not need sleep to be sane but I do lol And i try telling him that and he is careful for a few days then it goes back to the craziness till the next time I can't take it and remind him to be careful... Wow am I ever whiny this morning lol
Anyway I should be moving along and heading to work. I am already a bit late and my boss will be waiting for me, I am helping her clean out her desk since she is moving desks.... Later folks and see you later!
-Diva
Hi Diva,
I think any of us would feel annoyed when somebody does not follow through on something they are supposed to. I don't know if we are all like this because of our anxiety but when I say I am going to do something I generally do it. It is important for me to follow through because I find it brings order in my life.
When things go wrong as they usually do I have to do a ton of self-talk to calm down. I swear I can feel the anger or frustration coursing through my blood. Which in turn gets the anxiety going pretty good. I have a hard time letting things go. I think Josie had some good ideas let me know if they worked and I will try to do them too.
I really do not know the answer to that. Why do I get so annoyed at things? But atm I fell so annoyed and just URGH! I can feel my heart pounding and I fell so angry and for what? Nothing really. But it really is an uncomfortable state to be in.
I had an interview this morning. And the participant never showed up. It cost me 25$ to get there and back and for what? To wait and wait... I am so angry! Then I had to call him back and see what happened. He just plum forgot me... I was so annoyed but I had to stay polite so I did but I felt like screaming. I did not reschedule him¸because I couldn`t get myself to do so I was so angry so I will have to call him back later in the week.
Now, I know strong emotions like these do nothing for my nerves but irritate them further. But sometimes I just can't help feeling tee'ed Off!ARGH!
Now I feel all yucky and upside down and generally stressed! I hate days like this!
-Diva
