Hi Val,
First of all, BIG HUGS!!!!!! You really are having a rough time.
I can relate to the whole "why is this happening?", as I started to have panic attacks occasionally in my mid-20s, but as I hit my 30s, they have come on much more. My guess it's because we have more on our plate as we get older and more responsible?
Could you be having more attacks because you are worried about your job? Just a guess. As Danielle asked, are there any specific triggers that set you off on an attack?
This program has really been helping me, so definitely give it a try. It helps empower you to deal with the attacks and it puts everything into a manageable perspective. Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!