Hi Sariita, you are so not alone, thats why this site exists !!! It really is an excellent site, and everyone can really empathise with how you're feeling. What this site does tho' apart from being able to talk and ask others about your thoughts and feelings, is offer an excellent cbt programme that is really well worth doing, and doesn't cost anything !!! It is possible to live with this 'thing', really it is, and live well too, not just exist !! Its not easy, there's good days and bad, lots of doubts, but so much to learn too. People have different 'coping' techniques, and relaxation idea's, most of us have really been there, some still going through it, but know that it can all make a difference, and that you are most definately not alone !! I wish you well