Hi Mya
Medication has been a positive choice for me and definately the right choice for my family..lol.
I had exhausted all other options (alternative, excercise, homeopathics, yoga.. you name it, I tried it.) and I came to the realization that this was bigger than me and I needed help.
The medication does NOT cure this, but for me it stopped my mind from racing and enables me to live a full and active life 98% of the time.
I have had a few setbacks even with the medication but they have been hormonally related (having babies) or when I was trying to "wean" myself.
Currently I am upping my dose as I found stopping nursing really through me into a loop. On the brighter note though, I began having panic attacks when I was 19 (although I was always anxious / ocd thinker) and I am now 34. I'm happily married, I have 2 beautiful babies.. I've had great jobs..and am now in school again. I live a very full and active life... so I am thankful and grateful the medication is available.
I'm not sure what you're fears are..but I had a really hard time taking the medication..for fear of side effects etc. so I encourage you NOT to read them or research them... Use your partner / or safe person and doctor to work with you and watch for them. My doctor had me coming in weekly and I was able to call her if anything was "weird".. the pharmacist was great too... and that was a godsend for me...
The pills do not work immediately (or at least Paxil like I take did not) and it was about 4 weeks until I was "out of my cloud"... I had battled anxiety / ocd for years and had no idea life could be this much better..
I know there are a lot of naysayers and negative stigma attached to the medication but for most they are a temporary helping hand and for some they are a life long NEEDED lift...just like insulin.
I would much rather be happy and enjoy my days than NOT taking anything in fear of being judged.
You need to do what is right for you Mya and there is no shame in admitting you need some help... That makes you brave courageous!! and kudos to you for knowing when to ask ....
If you do feel you have the strength and will to do it without I think that's always the best choice but it is not always possible. I'm one of those :)
I have babbled long enough... Hope this helps you a bit Mya...