Geez thanks so much. Sometimes it just takes a little perspective...and you have all given me that. Thanks for listening and being so supporitve.
Just a little side bar. I am currently reading the book Don't Panic R. Reid Wilson. (oops I hope I am allowed to reccommend a book in this forum!)
It is about taking contro of panic attacks and there are some really good sections in it. It deals with a whole range of anxiety related issues. Currently I am reading a Chapter 16, Taking a new stance. Here
it deals with how to change your negative thought patterns. I have been really doing the exercises and ...well..they seem to work. Essentially it
enables you to move from repetative negative thoughts to supportive ones. There are very simple steps and easy to remember and employ.
Anyhow thanks DazedMommy for the kind words as usual. Miki and cornish-dee, thanks for reminding me that I am only human afterall. Danielle I am taking your advice and am
recording events, times and dates of my irritability and will bring it up with my Dr.
The joys of parenting... *sigh*.. Everyone snaps once in awhile, whether it be at our kids or at our spouse, it's part of being human. I've been guilty
of it a few times myself... and like you I feel terrible. You recognized what you did though and continued your nite with your daughter. She is none the wiser
nor will she be thinking about it like you are... We are our own worst critics and you Michael are just being hard on yourself. Coming off of meds
can't be easy, I have yet to be successful so I'm sure that can be a bit draining at times as well as the energy you've used while coming off of
them watching every small change in yourself.
You sound like a dedicated father, husband and the fact that you're concerned about the way you acted just reinforces what a great parent
you are.
Even Moms and Dads are goobers sometimes...
Congrats again on weaning and stop worrying about the little things... you're kids think you're amazing... savour that! and be a littel easier on yourself.
Hi Michael,
Agreeing with cornish-dee, the stress probably ended up pushing you. It happens. And I agree that it's all about how you cleaned it up after. They know how much you love them, but they don't know what you are going through exactly, yet.
Michael hello there .
Well its not me personally but when my husband came off his meds he was really snappy . It went on for quite awhile . Eventually he went back on meds .
Kids eh , well you sound a kind caring guy . I think we all 'snap' occasionally and its how we deal after the event is what matters . Dont anyone can punish us as much as we punish ourself .
You spent time after and played with your children thats wonderful :)
Michael,
Have you noticed the frequency of this irritability increase since your discontinuation of Effexor?
Withdrawing from antidepressants are tough and it is best to discuss any abnormal or disruptive symptoms with your GP.
Danielle, Bilingual Health Educator
It had been two weeks since I stopped taking Effexor. Most of the side effects of that has worn off save for the occasional 'brain zap' as someone so aptly coined it. The problem is I am experiencing bouts of extreme irritablity. Last evening after having a great day I yelled at my daughter for something ridiculous. Even my son was upset as I never yell much. People I've spoken to simply say five year olds will do that to you etc. But the irritability just welled up and I snapped. For a brief instant I recognized a window were I could have stopped myself but proceeded to act like a bit of a jerk! The rest of the night was a bit of a wash for me personally because I felt terrible and very anxious about the whole incident. It has happened on several occasions were this irritability just washes over me! Has anyone experienced this and is this the new me or am I still experiencing the 'med reduction'. Geez I felt like I was doing so well. (by the way within 20 minutes we were playing snakes and ladders, so methinks it was me who obviously has the issue)
Sorry for rambling
Michael
