Hi Koneko , hey you havnt hijacked my thread ok . Its nice to talk to someone who really understands . WOW back , it cant be coincidense that we both are nervous with eating things can it ? I still remember the day it happened clear as day , my dad had to take me to hospital after trying to make me sick with dried bread and salty water . Nice !!! I can remember refusing to let the doctor put what seemed at the time huge tweezers down mt throat to pull it out . So i had to stay overnight and have a general .
Also as a young teenager i got some mutton stuck in my throat , i didnt tell antone and went to the loo to see if i could um bring it up myself . I couldnt , my mum who must have wondered where i had got to found me and gave me the biggest whack in the back ever . It worked too . So im careful with meat and fish ever since .
I also love food , well like i said im not exatly a small person .
I went to a family get together when I was a child and got a fish bone stuck in my throat as well. I actually was choking on it in front of everyone, horrible day that even now I still remember how I was feeling at the time. I couldn't eat fish for a long time after that. I'm also very careful when I eat fish now, the bones really scare me because of that. I've always wondered if that day was one of the catalysts since it tends to pop into my head sometimes when I panic.
When I heard fish pie I was thinking that it sounded kind of gross but your description of it sounds actually quite tasty, I'll have to try it some time in the future
The whole thing that drives me nutty about this fear is that I absolutely LOVE food. It's really disheartening. I have these cookies that I adore sitting in my pantry but I can't make myself eat any of them atm. I have all these ingredients for various meals sitting in my fridge that I just can't bring myself to make lately.
I'm actually going in to have my tonsils looked at next week because I noticed white lumpies on them. My throat has really been bothering me and sore so going to see if maybe it's tonsilitis or something. I almost feel like I'd feel better having them out.
Didn't mean to hijack your thread there, it's really great to know there's someone else around here who knows what it's like and it's a real boost when I get to read that you're doing well, it makes me feel like I can do it too some days. I'm glad to read that you're doing better today!
Ahh bless your fiancee what a sweetie . Well i have eaten better today , even had some sweets !!!
Fish pie well i cheated and brought a ready meal , its the only ready i ever have . I used to eat my mums homemade but i got a bone stuck in my throat when i was a child and it put me off fish for years . Even now i eat fish very slowly and throughly .
Oh all it is is broken-up fish pieces in eiher a cheesy or parlsley sauce covered in mashed potatoe and grated cheese . Its very nice .
It's definately a very bad cold. My nose is runny/stuffy, I'm coughing/sore throat and my appetite is gone. I'm sure when it's over it will be ok. Fish pie, I've never had it, is it good?
Hope everything is going better for you Dee :)
Brenna: No worries, thanks for the kind words. I'm thinking that once this cold/flu (who knows what it is at this point) is over then I can go back to working on my fear. My fiancee is very good about it and has supplied me with an arsenal of soup until it's over. When it was really bad before I couldn't even eat soup but I can manage to eat soup when I'm sick so I know it's getting better. It's only a matter of time.
Koneko it might be , like i said i had a sore throat for a few days that did it for me . Now i have my 'anxious throat' when it feels all swollen all the time so eating is very hard .
Shame really because i was starting to eat anything , but like you said we did before its just a glitch .
Just ate a small fish pie , dont know why they say pie when its mashed potatoe on the top !!!
Oops! I must have missed this somewhere. I see in your previous posts now that you have a fear of chocking while eating which is quite common.
Are you tracking your symptoms and challenging your anxious? Are there some foods that are easier to accommodate than others? Keep working on learning about your fears and challenging your anxious thoughts.
Eating is actually why I'm here. Swallowing makes me very anxious at times.
Dee:
I was doing really great until a few days ago. I don't know what's changed between then and now but I just have to tell myself that I did it before and can do it again. The small meals work great but it's hard to force myself to eat atm, not feeling the hunger that usually pushes me through. I think that I may be getting sick so I'll tough it out to see if that's what it is.
Whatever it is though I'm sure we'll both get through it
Know what you are saying Koneko , am having abit of trouble yet again . But this time am forcing myself to eat . Its very hard but have to do it , i was really quite poorly last time i didnt eat for quite a few weeks .
Continue to challenge these negative thoughts. Ask yourself the questions that Danielle has posted.
If eating usually helps you stay focused, then try to stay on track with your eating. Members, please offer some other suggestions to help stay positive and focused.
