Today I have a doctor's appointment (nerve-wracking in itself as it's a new doctor and my last doctor experience was less than pleasant) but on top of this, I have to catch a bus to the place. Catching buses is something I avoid where possible and I can feel the anxiety builing in the pit of my stomach right now.
When I start to get a bit anxious I think of how I can prepare for catching the bus:
- When I think I can't do it, remember the times I have done it - and even those times when I've had a panic attack, I've done it or the panic has subsided soon after
- I have my panic surfing worksheets so I can "ride the wave"
- Water, ipod, enjoy the scenery
- Have times of buses so if don't catch first one, know another one will be there soon, so can catch it
After the doctor's appointment I booked in to get my hair done as a treat. Though sometimes (as I am still challenging my warped thinking) I think that I don't deserve a treat if I can't make the bus trip panic free - however if I make the bus trip, that is the main thing!
I think it's the anticipation that's the worst sometimes.. still got three hours before the 'event'.
This post was more just to get my thoughts sorted out and to calm myself down.. will have to update everyone on how it goes!
