I hate having to think about eating every time I sit down to eat but now I'm trying very hard to question myself each and every time. Seeing the babies eat was a really good thing, it makes me think about it every time and that they never had a problem with choking or anything. Nothing goes bad for them so why should it for me? Asking myself that question every time, the answer sure is helping. I mean, I've been eating these little tiny morsels and they just stuff huge amounts of food into their face
I do think it's getting better, I know I'll have my ups and downs but days like this make you hopeful! Hopefully on a bad day I can come back and read this.
Hi there Koneko , to me that trip was quite a success you must be chuffed with yourself . Well done . Hopefully your confidense will be better each time now .
That's great Koneko!
Glad your trip to the in-laws went well.
As you said........remember this trip for next time and it will definitely help you to get through!
Stay positive and let us know how you are doing.
Faryal
My fiancee was right. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be and I actually ate more than I would have if I was at home. I think my problem is that since I stay at home atm I have nothing else to focus on but these anxious feelings. I'm going to make an attempt to get out more I think, it helps more than staying at home. I didn't eat as much as I would have normally before but it was still a huge improvement over my eating habits lately.
Everyone was very focused on the babies, I just used the not much of an appetite excuse and ate small portions. The baby's mother was just getting over the stomach flu so she didn't eat much either. No one seemed to notice anything out of the ordinary and the trip was fine in the end. I felt bad not eating much of the chicken they served the other night though because it was tasty but I didn't feel much like eating it.
All in all it turned out okay and I definately was just making it worse than it was. Hopefully for next time I can remember how this trip went and try to not work myself up so much.
Hello there Koneko . I think thats a good plan , if you not ready yet then well your not ready and do not need the extra stress torturing yourself about it .
Hope everything goes ok for you , you never know you might actually enjoy it ! Will be thinking of you .
Thank you for the kind words, I think I'll probably just worry about it until I go and then it won't be as bad as I thought when I get there. That's sometimes how it works.
His sister is there with her two babies so I'm hoping that they won't even notice, they'll be too preoccupied with her babies. If they do I think for now I'm just going to go with the excuse (womanly problems, feeling nauseous...) I'm not really ready to tell them the truth. The above wouldn't be a lie, I'm not nauseous but the rest would be true. Sorry if that was a little TMI
Hope you are doing ok. Fortunately I get along with my inlaws, sure they have their moments, but i'm just happy we get along. but i'm thinking of you and hope you are ok.
