I sure will respond to this!
Let me first off say I have done everything backyards in my life!
I do not have my high school diploma. I have many experiences that take me beyond it but I would like to finish it!
That being said, I had my first child when I was 19, then my second at 21. My first child's father I am not with (and for darn good reasons) Then I met my hubby (we are not yet married but that is my nickname for him) when my daughter was 5 months and I was living back with my parents who were seperating and going bankrupt! We moved into gother after only being with each other for 3 short months (he did not want a young girl with a baby living on her own). He comes from a very respectible family and they have been so kind. then after only being together for 7 months we had my second child.
After being together for 3 years we bought our curent house.
So after that long story, this past feb, we started having a rough patch. I would just act as if I was not there and I felt we just were 2 people living in a house. I didn't think it was bad it just needed some spcing up. Well we ended up having a fight at 1:00am in the morning (I didn't mention that we never ever fight). He told me there was a time when he did want to marry me but now he didn't and he thought maybe we should break up. I was snow balled, where did all this come from. I hated him and how could he do this to me when I was going through this.
we worked things out and we try and lough a lot more. I know it is frustrating to him when I don't want to do things i.e. go shopping for showers and stuff. I try to do the things that are important, and he does see now that I am at least trying even if I do have set backs.
So I think what you were saying is that you had PA's and didn't relize your marraige was maybe one of the key problems.
I once thought that I am so happy with my hubby and I wouldn't change him in for the world, but I do sometimes feel that we are missing something, maybe I am worng, I am an effectionit person, I love to cuddle, be told thank-you etc. I need recognition I guess you could say.
so maybe some our relationship needs to be a bit more two way for me to start with my healing, sometimes I feel like I want him to be there to help me and sometimes I want everyone out of my way and I will get through this myself.
hhmmm think I am starting to remble again :)
When all is said I think we as humans need each other as support and strength, to talk to each other without feeling like any idea is dumb, to grow old, and to accomplish life tasks as partners. If you don't have that bond then what do you have.
