Hi All,
I am a new member and am glad to have a place to talk where everyone is going through a similar thing, i feel like i can be myself, this all started for me around two years ago, i would get dizzy and light headed and thought it was ear problems, i used to call them funny turns, i had no real fear of going anywhere because i thought i was sick and had lots of tests, i thought they would find what was wrong with me and i would feel better, last christmas i drove to my mums about 45 minutes away and was anxious the whole way, i almost pulled over but i kept going, this continued over the next few months as i have a friend suffering depression and anxiety she mentioned that it might be anxiety by this time i kind of thoguht that myself, i went to the doctors and he gave me ativan, i googled the hell out of it and was nervous about taking it but i started taking .5mg nightly and over the next few months i avoided going places where i had felt anxious ir had an attack till i ended up my only outing was shopping weekly at my local centre, i have been to mums every year for 17 years but this year i felt i could not drive that far away and had the family at my house instead so i did not have to go anywhere.
I was so scared of taking anti depressents the thought made me so anxious and i have read 100's of blogs about this medication and that medication and the side effects which only made things worse, i have tried hypnotherepy, and lots of accupuncture, i tried one zoloft and had a terrible reaction and that scared me more, i have been prescribed Cymbalta and was to scared to take that, anyway i decided that the best out of the bad bunch to start on was prozac, three weeks ago i took 10mg, i was ok most of the day but in the afternoon i had an attack which i think i brought on myself and then did not take it again as i work full time i felt i did not have the time to get it in my system and get past the side effect phase, i am off for ten days now and have decided to try again, for the past two days i have been taking 5mg i feel ok, i have a headache and nausea, not much of an appetite but i feel i have to try and give them a chance to work, i am booked to see a phscologist in January so i can have some therepy, i really want to get better, sometimes i feel i will never be free to drive where i want again, or stop avoiding things that i know i will enjoy because i am scared of an attack, i hope these meds work, i am going to eventually try build up to 10mg and see how i go on that
sorry for the length of my post and thanks for listening to whoever reads it
xxx
