hi everyone just wanted to let you know that i am still around and trying to read some of the program everyday. having kind of a hard time focusing on anything but still trying. i pop on now and then to read some of what you guys are saying. anyways, i think i am going to go to sleep now. have a good day everyone.
I am so sorry to hear about your kitty, i recently lost my beautiful girl Molly (thats here in the pic) after 15 years and i was a wreck i didnt think i could handle it all my breathing and relaxation exercises just went out the window and i cried and cried for days, the pain gets a bit easier, but you never forget, i brought myself a bracelet with an amber stone the colour of her eyes in memeory of her.
I think you should talk to your husband about how you are feeling its to much for you to cope with alone, its ok to need some help, if you had a broken leg you would let him look after you, this is just the same only a different part of you.
Its better to be safe so its good you rang the police to check.
Keestoo: I am sorry to hear about your dear little pet. It's hard when they leave us. They're like members of the family. I hope you are feeling a bit stronger now.
Hi Keestoo: Hope you are feeling safer today. That would have been scary for me too, if I thought someone was in the house. I have a dog who is a great alarm system and I feel safer with her around. Keep posting. Keep the faith.
Know that we are here for you, keep working through the sessions of the program. I am sorry to to hear about your pet cat, there is a session of grief and loss as well. Do be sure to read through the section it may be able to help you prepare and cope with this situation.
Well I went to the doctor and they didn't commit me. This is good news. She just asked me a bunch of questions and then set up another appointment for the end of the month. That was Thursday. Then later that night my cat was throwing up blood so I had to take her to the vet and they pretty much said that she is going to die in the next week, if that long. So I am going to have to have her put to sleep. I knew I was going to have an attack as soon as he starting talking about her having a giant tumor in her tummy. So I took one of the pills I am suppose to take if I feel or anticipate one coming. THEY DO NOTHING FOR ME AT ALL!!!! It is very frustrating for me. I have had a pretty rough week. I am convinced that there was someone in my house the other day and wouldn't come out of the bedroom until someone came over and checked the whole house first. And then a couple hours later I heard someone up in the attic above the garage, I'm thinking that it was the same person that was in the house in the first place. So to make a long story short I ended up calling the cops and they came and looked up there. They said they didn't see anyone. Still not convinced that there wasn't anyone in here. But I am convinced that my husband is going to leave me when he realizes all the things going on in my head. Hopefully I can keep the big things from him until I get this a little more under control. Thanks for listening (reading) all.
I believe what you are saying is there are no degrees of yes and no.
With the ten questions if you can not say one hundred percent yes, then it is no. And no means no even though your mind is trying to say maybe. Maybe is just the negative talking. The ten questions work by clarifying things and blocking that negative thinking. A very good tool.
Have you started reading the program yet? I know you are feeling overwhelmed right now. When you have had a little time to rest. This might be something you want to consider doing while you are waiting for your appointment..I really think it might help you..After you read the first 3 sessions your tool box will give you a 10 questions list that you can print. You can also read this list in session 3 it will help analyze your anxious and negative thoughts..For example Do you know it to be true that you have borderline personality disorder? Do you know that you will be hospitalized against your will? If you can not answer these questions with yes and thats means with 100 percent certainty, than you can not say that these things that you are afraid of are true and will happen can you? It is hard for me to explain here but if you start reading and working the program it will all start making sense and I think it will help you understand yourself better and help you with you fear..Please give it a try when you are ready..You have nothing to lose...
