I DID IT!! I am so happy and hopeful for a change. I actually went to TJ Maxx and got my son some shorts and t-shirts for his birthday, I even bought a white blouse for myself and shorts for my husband, all on clearance sale with is an added perk.
I cant believe I did it. I was very nervous especially standing in line but thankfully the store was not at all busy and I get in and out quickly, I almost did not go but I forced myself, I have to get myself out of this agorophobia so I can go to the Doctor again and see my nurse-practioner and other places, it was not easy tonight but I am hoping next time it will be, do you think?
I just wish my husband would of shown more enthusiasm about it, he did not seem to think it was a "real big deal" probably thinking I just went shopping, but I have not gone in a clothes store since December of last year so I think it was a big deal, he wants me to go out during the day more and I am working on that, I think tonight was a good start, I wanted to post something positive for a change and I know all the members will be happy and proud of me for what I mastered tonight.
I have to try to get over the hypocrondria and health anxiety, I actually freaked out for hours earlier because a mosquito bit me a few times and we are having outbreaks of Dengue fever and west nile in our area, and now I am convinced I might of contracted it, I am trying not to fear it or dwell on it, but I know west nile and dengue fever are very serious illnesses and I just hope I did not catch it from the bites I got, it was all over the news and I think it scared me, heres hoping I dont get it.
I just dont want to worry about dengue fever tonight, I just want to stay happy in what I did tonight, I hope I do not get sick and I continue on, I guess tonight was a good start, but I do feel in my heart I have a ways to go yet, hoping its up and not down.
