Hello everyone,
my name is Aimée , I'm from Switzerland and I will be 31 in one week.
Since two years I'm fighting with panic attacks, that are caused by the thoughts of me being seriously ill.
Whenever I have an unsual feeling in my body I start thinking and thinking and if the feeling doesnt go away I start to get the typical signs. My belly sturts to rumble, I start shivering, cant breathe right, my heart starts "racing" and so on,
I used to see a psychologist but then I missed an appointment because I wasnt here and I procrastinated to set up a new appointment. A few weeks passed by and I was ashamed to call her. Eventhough she was really nice and she sure wouldnt have been mad, I dont know why I didnt call her. I wrote her an email last night, when I felt restless again.
Since a couple of days I start feeling dizzy at about the middle of the afternoon, I get really tired as well and have a hard time keeping my eyes open. That of course is worrying me again, eventhough I tried to ignore it.
Two days ago I woke up and my heart was beating really fast, it didnt stop for about 3 hours until I could finally fall asleep again. Of course the whole "program" went off and I had a hard time to calm down.
The same thing happened last night again, I checked my heartrate and blood pressure and the heartbeat was at 96 and the BP at 138 to 98, I freaked out again, only calmed down when the BP went down slowly and I kept on lying with my head on my husbands chest. I calmed down and could fall asleep after a while.
Today it started again, I was outside with my family and I started feeling dizzy again. I now have to force myself to not freak out again tonight, not sure if I'm gonna be able to or not.
Anyway this dizzyness is not normal and I will go to the doctor tomorrow. I cant go ahead like this eventhought this might be nothing but usual my panic attacks are not dialy, they come from time to time. My fear of them showing up is dialy tho and I dont wanna live like this anymore. I need help
oh and these attacks may be related to the birth of my son, which wasnt easy.
anyway thaanks for "listening"