I'd say anything that challenges me makes me better. With caregiving, it's a challenge to care for myself. Other obstacles are the lack of appreciation, and the armchair quarterback/sibling. I've learned so much though, and how neglected women have been because of their traditional selfless giving throughout all cultures.
I certainly feel like like I have bigger shoulders, though.
As for the core belief work, I'll resume that, since I had to suspend it to micromanage(I really had to, in this case) the hospital stay recently.
I did just treat myself to a haircut and feel rewarded
I had this habit, which I resumed after mom got out of hospital, of using time to see how my collegues were doing, and comparing is not the greatest thing to do, especially if I have a negative filter AND circular thinking.
I used to remind myself that I'd use what I learned at work for a good cause, but I made the mistake last night of reviewing negative memories.
I'll keep myself on a better path, thought-wise...and refine the goals for fall
A better question might be how important is your idea of success, all men are equal in that we all eventually turn to dust. For me just being alive tomorrow morning is good enough. Not much of a goal is it, but I know full well I can no longer compete with anyone but myself.
Today I marvelled at the changes in my former company, and how everyone progressed. I felt bad as I compared myself, doing menial things as a caregiver.
I started to ask myself what my definition of success was, and wondered if others have wondered about their own "success"?
