Regarding what I just posted on this thread...I'm going address what I just wrote on my "Shari's Move" thread, so please follow up there in a few minutes, so I have time to write it.
I'm having a hard time myself. Today is my 50 th birthday and I just took my dogs for a walk (on a leash) and a cat ran out from the bushes and attacked my dogs. My one dog got scratched on the outer eye lid. I snapped. I'm ready to move back to Maryland today. It's hard living here, because there is so much work to do, it's exhausting. At home, I had a half acre fenced in backyard and a dog door and now I have to walk my dogs several times a day. And, all the neighbors of giant sized dogs walk them off leash and I have two tiny dogs under 10 lbs. each. I also have to check for poisonous snakes before I go outside. I have to drive my parents everywhere. My daughter's flying home tomorrow. I just want to have her help me drive back home tomorrow, so I can go back to the way things were. If I leave tomorrow, I could be back on Sunday. We're supposed to go to Downtown Disney for my birthday and I don't want to go. I'm exhausted and these last 2 weeks of living here, and all of the exposure work, is just too much. I want to quit. I'm sorry, I should have said something positive to help you, but I'm crying now, and I can't even encourage myself.
I went out to a course yesterday, and was so wound up, that I couldn't sleep well. The next day, I was rude with mom's pharmacy, and haven't returned mom's doc's secretary's calls. They're both just trying to help, but I'm so grumpy.
I did take mom to another med appointment, but didn't change an old top, and it was religious week for that different doc, so I felt extra guilty looking unkempt. At least I was "feeling" okay, since I didn't pay attention to my top, until another patient noticed it being old.
I need some rest tonight
And I'm also annoyed that another course might not run...too much to do, and not enough emotional resources
I feel awful, and wish I was useful to society again, but sometimes I wonder
