Today has been a bad day for me. In fact, it's been horrible. I've had panic attacks over and over and over again, without much relief.
I had planned to go out and enjoy my Friday at my favorite cafe where they play live music at night but I have been having attacks all day and I still can't get them to stop. I have two medications which I try not to rely on.. One is Elavil and that one is taken nightly since it knocks me out within a couple hours, the other is Klonopin which is as needed. I took only my daily dose of Elavil a couple hours ago but I'm not feeling the effects to the point of my usual drowsiness.
Besides the medicine, I've been re-reading all the chapters I've gone through and writing it all out. I even skipped ahead to the chapter about relaxation. I tried box breathing for an hour which did not bring any calm, in fact I had to stop several times because I got dizzy (apparently I use shallow breathing way more than I thought). I tired PMR also. Not much of a difference.
I've tried distractions, even though I know they are not the right way out. Even those have not calmed me and I am still on my rollercoaster of peaks and dips in panic.
I'm out of ideas. I'm so tired of feeling like this. Today has been my "endless day of panic" and I cannot even get myself to sleep. I'm really losing hope.
Anyone have days like these? What do you end up doing? What helps?
Anything at all would help, thanks for listening (or reading). It makes me feel less alone in this battle.