Thanks Josie,
It's hard to ask for help, and it was hard to post this. It's been harder to support others this winter's end, and this beginning of spring, although winter was mostly okay.
I'll say I rested today, and lowered my expectations. Tomorrow I have to see a dentist for a cleaning, and scheduled a massage after. I went for a walk today, after feeling inspired by a quote by poet Wallace Stevens who said "...sometimes the truth is in a walk around the lake...".
Tomorrow after the massage, I'll find time for a workout, and get some food shopping in. Maybe I'll find something to buy which would be good for a comfort recipe. I found a great place to buy fresh pasta, and shared some delicious dumplings stuffed with spinach and ricotta. There's joy even during hard times, to my surprise.
I did write one of those cathartic letters, so I felt better even though I didn't send it.
I did get to see someone this morning, but I was so out of sorts, that I think that all I could see was my pain, without hearing what was said to me.
It's raining and I look forward to some rest, since the last couple of nights weren't restful as I wished.
Rain is so restful.