Ann and Hopeful
I have the fear of the fear whilst highway driving as well. Oh boy, don't let me see the road winding ahead, then I think: "I'll get so scared when I get there and I will feel so trapped and it will cause me to hit on the breaks and that unsettled feeling of unreality, being numb and tingling hands will take possession of me." Until over a year ago, i loved driving too. It was a matter of :"get in the car, go from point A to B and back, no matter what the road was like, whether I've driven it before or not" Now it is a completely different story, it now is: "going from A to B, so many bumps in the road, might get trucks, fso many downhills, oh I'll get scared here and there etc..."
However, challenging my thoughts does help. In the beginning I did not notice the difference, but as time went on (I've just completed week 6 of the programme) I found it easier to challenge the thoughts. Of course I still avoid in certain situations, but it helps.
The hardest thing to accept is the fact that it will not be the same again. I just cling to the hope beating this disease. Someone posted a note the other day saying that anxiety, the illness should not be entertained with compassion. And that is my new motto. It is a destructive monster which took away my freedom, therefore I will fight it back and regain my independence - ie driving from A to B without thinking about the bumps and feelings.
Let's work together on fighting the fear of the fear ;o))